HMMMM well its has been FOREVER since I have written anything here....actually anywhere so dont worry, I still use this as my main babbling page hehe ^^;..Anywho time to update you guys on i have been doing this whole time. and it begins..........................................................................wait for it..........................................................................................NOW!

Well i aint at TAMIU this year, too much crap to deal with. I am at LCC now, taking computer classes. My major here is CIS and its pretty awesome being that I know all this either way.  I like it here, i guess the environment is more calm than over there..also the guys are pretty cute here too ^^.  Ummm I am in the TAMIU Marching Band though. Assistant Drum Major..hehe how funny right...well its ok, I do get pissed off and frustrated sometimes but I do have fun cause I am with all my friends. Ummm what else...left my job at the mall, just wasnt giving me enough hours.  Now I work at LCC..at the computer labs. Its cool and I get to do what I usually do, be on the computer and do NOTHING.  its like my DREAM hehe.  What else...umm love life..non-existent as usual, but i dont mind, never really my main priority. ummm what else to talk about.. S!!!! yeah Im hungry...leave me alone..well this is it in a nutshell of what I have been doing...I will write more in detail once I get the chance...so TTYL..bye

*sighs and looks around* yeah yeah I know....i havent posted...so what sue me....anyways...i aint even gonna make this one a big post...why just cause i cant think right now...

lets see where to start...well this school is over...i got my grades....they're ok...no i aint saying what i got...but yeah...what else...the high school finished finished too...so now its summer for everyone..ummm i saw the band's spring concert...it was cool....i saw my bro (George) graduate...it was nice and well he my best friend so I am happy for him....what else...still looking for a job...gonna take summer courses in Summer Session II...blah blah fucking blah..i dont know what else to write so I am leaving it like that...laterz...

A Lie

I kept it inside, for nobody to see
I kept it silent, for nobody to hear
I kept it frozen for nobody to notice
I kept it locked away, just out of plain fear

Since the day I met you, it struck me like lightning
Since the day I met you, I wanted to fly away
The feelings grew and grew, to the point of explosion
I wanted them to leave, but they wanted to stay

All this time that has past, they have actually stayed with me
The whole time I said that I moved on was a lie
I never actually got over you, just hid it away
And now that its coming back, I just wanna cry

I feel as if I cant do this, i cant keep this up
I mean if it didnt happen before, what are the chances
that it would happen again, I see no point
But my feelings for you are still there, covered in darkness

Im sorry for saying it now, but it had to come out
Something I have kept hidden for so long, something that I had to deny
I denied that my feeling for you were gone
That I have moved on, well....that was a lie.

Just wanted to post this up...not really an update I know, Im sorry, just kinda not thinking at the moment..laterz

J-Van X_x